♥~An Odyssey On A Virtual Diary~♥

woot! played dota wit my gwoupmwates all aftoinoon.. ^_^ that was fun.. ha! just learned a new char..

after that we ate dinner at vulcachow.. hahaha.. unlimited rice!!! ate a lot till i can no longer close the lock and zip of my pants (yay! it’s true!! >.< ) but that dinner was nothing compared when we ate there last time and i was able to eat 6 cups of rice (my friends made it to 8 cups!) O_o wonder where did i put all that i eat?! that i do not know… ^_^

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Youve heard about it. 24 hours a day 7 days a week fun, non-stop txting (and start growing callouses lolz). With its mass appeal, it spawned a large number of 24/7 txters. Who wouldn’t want to avail it? for as low as P15 you can send more than a hundred text messages per day o_O; saves more and it’s practical, isn’t it? Unfortunately, unlimited text messaging, like most fads, is two-faced; it’s both BOON and BANE. Unli txt msging per se is good, since it doesn’t cost you a lot ^_^. However, some unscrupulous individuals have used it as a means of passing on and exchanging gross and sexually provocative information (hmmm..sounds a little mushy). Not only that, many of the messages you receive range from the silly to the sinister. Yeah I know it’s not all the time you receive those kinds of messages. Coz’ on the other hand, there are also other individuals who share inspiring thoughts, and quotes about love, friendship, betrayal, tragedy, happiness, and the like.

As far as I know a lot of people are hooked with this ‘unli’ thingy, including me hehehe. So what comes next? Well… now and then your inbox becomes flooded with different kinds of messages from different people; some are from friends, some are least expected to be sending you txt msgs, and some are even from anonymous people. Haven’t you figured it out yet? Hmmm… think think think… The messages you receive no longer make sense, even if it is an inspiring, touching or a happy thought. Who knows if the message is REALLY intended FOR YOU or maybe, the sender used the ‘send to many/list/group’ options, and luckily, your name was just included. Come to think of it, without the unli txt msging, do you think you can still receive sweet, silly, nice, naughty or ‘how are you’ messages from time to time? Perhaps not, but if you got one or two, be happy… at least you know… it’s not crap… =)

Anyway, it’s only MY opinion.. It’s no big deal anyway. Si Daniel C*lin*. man gud ba flooder sa akong inbox!!!! (sent me 100+ msgs in less than half an hour..unya walay sulod!!! +_+ Napugos hinuon ko mag-delete all msgs sa akong inbox) Grrrr… t(^_^t) Hehehe..  Beware of that person flooder na siya!!! Bahala mo kapoy ug erase sa mga nonsense msgs. Hehehe..
Peace out!! ^_^

I do not have any intention to strike any network ^_^ so peace..

just arrive at school..and oh.. same thing happens.. boys staring at me.. just can’t handle it.. XD

hahaha big big BLUFF!!!

lolz i’m just bored..

       If you’re here to tell me that I am wrong, then get the fuck out of here!!! I don’t need your advice, I don’t need counseling, and I don’t need your opinion. I only want someone to listen to me, understand me, and be with me…

       Yeah, right, I just had a fight with my mom.. so I wrote this to ease a bit of pain..

       Ever since I came into the world of teens, arguments with my mom are inevitable. Well, I know it’s perfectly natural. But what is deviant is that from our first clash until now, we never had reconciliation. Yes, NEVER. Everything was forgotten and buried alive. I never had the courage to tell her I’m sorry. What for? She never listens, she doesn’t care. I may be wrong, but I doubt it. We can’t even have a heart-to-heart talk, I know it stinks but I wanted to. I wanted to understand her, I wanted to know her better, I wanted to bond with her, but I never had the chance.. she never gave me a chance. I wanted to tell her that she’s the best mom in the whole world, but I couldn’t because it’s not telling the truth after all. And it feels like I don’t have a mom at all. Actually, though I still deny it and I hate to admit it, I envy my friends who are close and open to their moms. T_T
      I understand that parents scold their children when a mischief or something wrong is done; and parent-daughter/son relationship should be preserved. But in our case, I don’t see an authoritative figure, who can guide me to the right path once I did something wrong. What I can see is a creature full of hate! We have been physically hurting each other, but that’s just a speck of pain. What hurts me the most is when she tells me things that you won’t even think a mom could tell her daughter. Our fight didn’t only bring me physical wounds, but it gave me a cut that was so deep. I don’t know if I’m on the road to healing, all I know is that I cry no more at the deep cut that was so painful before; or maybe I just became too resistant to her yells, coldness, anger and hatred. I’ve been too resistant for a long time. And now what?! The hell I could no longer contain it anymore. I wanted to burst. I wanted to cry my heart out!! But where?when?to whom? I have no home… I have no one to turn to… (if only my dad’s here with me.)
      I may sound too impious. Call me wicked, walang utang na loob, suwail, or whatever you feel like calling me, but this is how I really feel. No one knows how I feel. No one understands me.
      I am weak, I know it. I’m trying to be brave by hiding what I truly feel, I would rather keep everything in me(maybe that’s why only a few understands me), I wear a mask unnoticed by many; but I realize it’s not me at all. What most people see in me is that I am astig, wala lang, cool, relaxed, happy-go-lucky, as if I don’t have any problem at all; but what they don’t see and only a few could see is that behind this kaastigan and blithe appearance, lies a very very weak person, a person who is UNCONSCIOUSLY running away from her problems. Sad, but it’s true. If only I can be vocal, if only I can scream, if only I can express myself to someone through any means, but I just can’t do it. Something’s hindering me from doing so. Maybe, ayaw ko lang yung kinakaawaan ako.. or maybe I’m just afraid to voice out what I feel, and end up knowing that no one understands me. I sounded like a paranoid, right?
     That’s why this is my only way to express my feelings, where no one can see me, no one can hear me, no one can see me in pain.
     DAMN IT!!!! PUTA!!! LECHENG BUHAY TO!!!! SHIT!!!

…at least now… I feel better…

this blog somehow helped me… kulang pa… amf pasumbag!!!!

wo0t! came home from Banay-banay with my friends and I feel a bit tired.. but happy! lolz i’ve been away from Banay-banay for hours and I’m missin it already. I miss the vast rice fields, scenic beaches (it’s jaw-dropping, I tell ya) , beautiful sunrise and dramatic sunsets, bonfire, food, fresh air (I don’t think it still exists in Davao lol), the fun, and of course.. the company.

As of now, I can say that it was the best outing I had with my friends.. (may susunod pa ba? Hehehehe.. sana..)

I’ll be having the photos soon..don’t worry guys, you’ll see how we enjoyed there. Hehehe.. kaya Gwen, Farrah, Bob, and Ross… mamatay kayo sa inggit!!! ngano btaw wa ni uban.. hehhe.:) peace out!

Acknowledgment: Thank you po sa Tito and Tita ni Dan for the accommodation, food and the kindness you showed to us..kahit perwisyo lang po kami doon. XD To Kuya Ryan na pinsan ni Dan, thank you sa lahat.. Daghan kag natabang sa amoa (sa videokehan pa lang daan), maulaw na mi… salamat jud kaayo.. Sa ubang pipol didto na wala ko nakaila kay wala gipailaila ni Dan, and to all na wala na nako nabanggit na nakatabang sa amo.. thank you for making everything fine and fun.. hehhehe.. char! Drama…

Hoi ka2ng mga naay utang dira masking kang kinsa, pamayad mo ha… hehehe.. Hahahah.. wala koy mabuhat…xenxa na.. bored lang jud ko..

this day really sucks!!! who wouldn’t get pissed off when you wake up so early in the morning and rush for your 8:oo exam, and once you get there you’ll find out that exams were moved on 10:oo?! and yeah, we just had a hundred-item exam (i think it’s more than that) that we have to finish for only 2hours!!!! (don’t even mind askin, i wasn’t able to finish it). take note, everything have to do with computations (which i really, really hate–i hate anything that has to do with math) and we’re not allowed to use calculators!! wtf?! I’ve been racking my brains out thinking of the unknown formula which wasn’t taught to us. are They nuts? what do They think of us?! human calculators that can answer 0.00016mg  /  180mcg/kg/ml with just a piece of scratch paper and a pen?! are They trying to train us for our future profession? damn it! we can’t even apply this in the real setting once we get "there". who would be so stupid doing drug calculations manually knowing that your patient is dying?! or the hell are They just trying to make a name in which they can boast to others that Their students are so advanced?! ..darn! it’s a do or die exam.. i think i’m not gonna make it..=(

i wasn’t only pissed by the exam.. i just got a PINK SLIP today!!! that means another goddamn extension!!! grrr.. it was all because of my socks! that really sucks!!! i was taking that bullsh*t exam when the CI pulled up my pants and said i wasn’t wearing the prescribed socks!! i was only wearing ankle socks. wtf?! does it matter? and while i was filling up my pink slip, i didn’t know what to put there so the CI said that i’ll just have to put the remark as ‘late’ (late = pink slip = 1 day extension = P200^). what the hell I am not late! i am only wearing ankle socks!!!! it’s not fair!!! money really talks in our school! and i hate it!

i still have a long day to go (it’s still 2pm) and i don’t know what’ll happen next..

i know this day really really sucks!!!!

yeah, rando gave me a puppy yesterday and she was so cute!!! we named it Milkyger(after a friend from iRose XD) cause she was very white and fluffy..

hahah…hope i can take photos of her so you can see how cute she is. XD such a sweet pup.. and oh yeah, i’m looking forward on training milky (yes if i can, that’s what rando wants XD).. ta ta for now..