yah that’s right, i have a new puppy.. and it’s sooo cute.. Rando gave it to me early this afternoon. oh boy i was really surprised. =) thank you thank you thank you!!! i’m not gonna lose her this time.
i’m still thinkin of what shall i name her.. hmm..
–> this is her, sleeping soundly inside my lil sister’s shoebox
she’s so sweet and really cute. 
I have just finished watching Deathnote 1 and Deathnote - The Last Name. I
love this movie because it’s mind boggling, it has a good plot with
awesome twist and turns, it’s unpredictable and i just can’t get enough
of it.
The movie is a highly complicated murder
mystery and it has the most intricate plot i’ve ever seen on a movie(although the anime series is more complex). I find the amount of logic and thought
put into the characters’ plans and motives stunning and really awesome.
It’s really mind boggling and very unpredictable because it’s hard
to follow exactly what everyone’s motivations are, but the movie goes
deep enough
to actually explore every one of these views, and that becomes
very rewarding as the story continues. My mind works as i was watching
the movie from the beginning until the end, the movie doesn’t just show a story but it prompts me to think logically and rationally, and let myself be in the situation - that’s why i got hooked with the movie and the anime series. Truly, the pen is even mightier than a gun. hehehe
If you love problem-solving mysteries, you’ll definitely love this movie; it is worth the 225-minute(more or less) sit-on-the-couch-staring-at-the-tube-without-blinking on a one lazy afternoon. hehe
I’m currently watching the anime series and waiting for the incoming episodes. And I’m looking forward for the 3rd movie, i heard there will be one coming next year(2008) *darn it takes ages* i dont know exactly whether it will be L’s or Yagami Light’s story.
I know there are more than millions of people globally who play Warcraft 3:Frozen Throne, Defense of the Ancient map or commonly known as DotA. Ranging from ages 12-30 years old (MY average estimate),only people who lives inside a box or behind IT trend doesn’t know or even heard about this game.
I was lurking around the forums when i came across this thread that talks about "the truth behind dota". for those of you who haven’t yet heard or read this one, i’ll post the link for you click here
please take time to read so that you’ll have an idea what am i talking about.
As i have read the article, it made me think twice. However, there are some given facts that clashes the writer’s point, the game and my opinion.
take for example this statement taken from the article:
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Defense of the Ancient(DoTA)
who is ancient?
answer: God, but satans disguises himself and deceives us, saying that He is the Ancient one.
Why?
Ans: who would you think you will defend on this game? whose defense is this?
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Who ever said that "ancient" is God? Mr. Webster, the internet, and anybody who is literate enough to answer what is ancient wouldn’t tell that ancient=God.
If the game would explain itself, the ancient it’s talking about is the "TREE OF LIFE" which should be protected, that’s why it’s called Defense of the Ancient.
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the obvious aims: -to kill your enemy
- to destroy the tree of life for sentinel
- to destroy the frozen throne for scourge
- and TO BE BEYOND GODLIKE in this game.
the real aims:
- worshipping satan through consciously enjoying the game.
Why?
- because this game is extremely a deception from satan and you are actually enjoying it.
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It’s a strategy game, and the aim is NOT to kill the enemy. The aim is to protect/defend the ‘tree of life’ or ‘the frozen throne’ of which side you are on and this cliche comes in: offense is the best defense. and besides, where in the world would you find a real-time strategy computer game that doesn’t kill the ENEMY?
And about being "beyond GODLIKE", let me define godlike. godlike means being or having the nature of a god; Mr. Google defines godlike as being appropriate to or befitting a god. Meaning, it doesn’t really imply that it points to our(christians) Supreme Being. This game was based on fictional stories with fictional world, heroes, villains, gods and goddesses, etc.. Most probably, "beyond godlike" points to this game’s own god/goddess. By the way, if it says "beyond BUDDHALIKE", would it ever make a difference? (i meant no offense)
And I’ve never encountered OMG (Oh My God…which can also mean omigosh) or Bullsh*t being stated in the game.
Although some facts given would make you stop and think. These facts that were mentioned might be true, IF and only if you give meaning to it. It’s a video game and it’ll stay a video game if and only if you would think of it only as a video game. My point is let us not create a tsunami from a drop of water.
BUT i’d like to stress out that I’m not opposing the writer of that article, because I firmly believe that this game can be satanic if this game has already driven you AWAY from your life and your FAITH. If you let this game take most of your time, influence you, corrupt your mind, change and control you, then you should be alarmed.
Yes, it’s true that satan is playing around,he could be using your work/carreer, your vices, the media, even your friends, and all worldly materials to lure you away from your faith; and he could be using this game, but that is IF YOU ALLOW him to play with you.
I guess it’s alright to play this game as long as you don’t let it take and ruin your life, drive you away from your faith,by taking most of your time playing it. Take some time to breathe. Remember DotA isn’t the only thing in this planet. =)
ok let’s get it straight to the point. i know you have been wanting to help me. you have just read or maybe got some info on what have happened to me these past few months. but i just wanted to tell you, i am OK, we are ok.
you don’t have to get involved with my life. you think you might be helping, but you MAY just aggravate the situation. it happened 6 months ago, i have moved on, we have moved on. so please, stay out of my life. you don’t have to be part of my life, why? because you’re just not part of it.
i’d rather not take one step if i were you. GTFO of my life and just STFU! kthx bbai.
i can’t remember how and when it all started; what i can remember back then is that Massive Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game (MMORPG) became a hit to old and young ones, specially those of my age. it spread like wildfire and is totally getting epidemic. but I wasn’t really interested to that specially when I learned that you have to pay to play. just think about this, you have to pay both for the game time and internet connection at the same time.. definitely you are being ripped off. to those who fell for such, how pathetic.
way back then, I was introduced to iRose Online. It was my very first MMORPG, it’s free and I really really enjoyed it. although I really do not like the game play, i was fascinated by the graphics and i really enjoyed the community since I’m not only interacting with pinoys online, but other people from different countries as well. i was pissed off when Rose Online was adapted by Level-up-Games, and certainly they implemented that P2P(pay-to-play) scheme which made me say I’m NEVER gonna play any games that have game time rates.
although i tried playing the first free hours of p2p games like ragnarok, guildwars, and tantra - none of them really suites my taste. i also tried flyff, it’s a good game, but not so interesting for me.
I tried other online games which are for free and I found myself at the halls of the schools of Ran Online, it’s free for life and it was fun. but not long enough I got bored since what I do there is just the same old routine, even the quests aren’t that interesting, the game’s story is not so clear to me, and the graphics aren’t really attractive to me. Thus, I stopped. I got bored.
Then I came across an internet café and saw a lot of people playin RF Online. Although not really interested I tried playin it at home. And I just dunno why I certainly got hooked and addicted to it. It’s a pretty decent game with a lot of new stuff to the MMORPG world that hasn’t been. It is at least different from most other MMORPGs because the skills are dependent on how much time and usage you put into it and not what your level is. Combining Sci-Fi and Fantasy is excellent and the graphics are really awesome. i love the story, the concept, pvp, chipwars, battle dungeon, the incoming revamped team-play and more updates to come. I love the community, the social interaction, everything! I just can’t get enough of it. Curiosity did kill the cat. It’s Level-Up’s most expensive game, but i don’t mind.
Yeah right, I ate my words. =)
after weeks of preparation, pressure, exhausting and body straining practices, the long awaited cheerdance competition finally came. ^_^ mixed emotions were felt at that moment, i was excited, nervous and at the same time confident XD
we hit the floor, showed our moves, our attitude, our confidence, and our style - i know, we’d stand out. well then, the days of hard work, stress and late night rehearsals are all worth it because we made it to the top 3 out of the 8 divisions who competed - we came out 2nd runner up. but still, we’re happy about the results because all those who made it to the top are deserving to be called winners. although we didn’t bag home the bacon, we still felt champions of our division because we know we gave our best shot and we fought fair and square =)
congrats to humans and ea divs!!! and to other division, i know you did your best, that’s the best part of it.. we are all winners!! go nursing!!
so much of that cheering competition… sigh.. gone are the days of fiesta.. right now i’d be focusing more on my studies, specially our thesis. i haven’t done anything yet.. so, i’d be working really hard on it.. i’d be working seriously on it. ^^
that’s it.. i’m bored.. and it’s killing me!!! do you know something that i can do aside from playing dota? hehehe..^^ got to go now before this damn computer pisses me off
holy crap!!! with everything that just happened between my mom and i, i think i feel like breaking out.. good thing, i had these people close to my heart who gave me the reasons why i should live and go on with my life..
our feud is getting really worst to the point that we are hurting each other not only emotionally but also physically. am i hurt? - yah, a little. but now i’m really used to it. i become so numb. i could even remember her saying "sana namatay ka na lang". that hurts.. it really made a deep cut in my heart, but now if that thought comes across my mind i’m no longer affected, as what i have said, i am numb. my gramma(my dad’s mom) would always tell me that i should be thankful that she gave me my life - this life?! what the f*ck?! sometimes i wish i was never been born at all. yah i know she’s still my mom biologically, and financially (yan lang naman ang lagi at kaya nyang isumbat sa akin - how big she has spent money on me). but i haven’t felt having my mom as a friend, a supporter, a sympathizer, an adviser, a companion, a comforter, the list goes on… and when things get bleak, where do i turn to? it should be at home, right? but i’ve never been to a home. (i’m so thankful that i have these people close to my heart who still keeps me standing strong or i could have given up)
yes, i am stubborn, rebellious, and ungrateful.. you ask me why? simple, it’s all because of her. i was raised with heavy hands, spanks and belt buckles - i get them when i commit mistakes or when i could not reach her expectations. i grew up insecure and never appreciated from the smallest to the biggest things that i made and achieved - what she can see in me are my flaws, weaknesses, and failures. i grew up alone, with no one to turn to when i am down, no one to share my problems with, no one to listen to my crazy, funny, or sad stories - she never listened, not even once (it’s only my dad who did, and now he’s not with us right now T_T). now, what do you think would i be after all these that i’ve been through?
i know i am wrong. we are both wrong. but the hardest part is that she loves to think she’s never wrong. she’s always right, what she says and does is always right. yeah yeah whatever
i heard it loud and clear from her mouth, i am dead.. and so is she to me. (although not physically dead.. but in my heart, i no longer have a mom)
yeah i just had the very first tragedy in my life.. so long mama..
sad isn’t it? i have my nanay-nanayan anyway - my "mom" who was there for me, emotionally, academically, physically, and spiritually.. nah crush out the last word cause i’m beginning to question the existence of God.
hahay all done, a bit relieved and relaxed.. punta muna ako sa paseo..
i just had the greatest summer of my life (though i know there’d be more to come) w00t!!! breath-taking scenes, dramatic sunrise, moments with the gods, yeah!! although my legs got tired, my back got tired, my tummy was growling, my mouth was dry, no baths for a few days, and sleepless shivering nights - i endured them all!!! being on the peak of the highest mountain in the Philippines rocks!!! a lot of unexpected and not so good things happened along the way, but still we made it through the summit and back on the ground safe and proud!!! w00t!!! ^_^
Team Pasubo, Mt. Apo expedition - proud to be one!!! XD
i’m really pissed off with all that’s happening to me, and those people around me… damn it!!! i just don’t know where and to whom will i vent my feelings out. it’s just that, nobody really understands me.
i thought the days of being so insecure are gone, but i was wrong. i thought things changed, but i’m still the same old sarah - insecure, coward, and uncertain.
here i go again, ill-tempered, cranky, and irritable. i just don’t know why am acting like this, or was it just ME at all?
i just wish my dad’s here with me. it’s not only that i miss him..i wish he’s here with me coz he’s the only one who understands me, he’s the only one who really knows me, and he’s the only one i can turn to when things go wrong. :c
